08 March 2010

I'm A Survivor!

And a believer!

It was a tough battle but I've come through on the other side of this horrific virus that Kelli shared with me.

Now Roger has a version of it and looks horrific!  :-(

Michael received his passport and submitted all the paperwork the Army has required for his deployment.  Basically this is the last 2 weeks he has that is not being claimed by the Army for training or by his 2 trips to Richmond, VA to celebrate another friend leaving for Basic Training and one trip to celebrate his 25th birthday with his friends.

We've had some good talks and I think I have conveyed my feelings and he's giving me props for having to cut that umbilical cord and let him go unconditionally on to live his life.  He will always be my baby boy but as the day grows closer to him leaving for a year my heart cracks a little more but I'm trying to keep the sense of humor going for his sake because I know his life isn't going to be a picnic either for the next 400 some odd days.  He knows I love him and I'm immensely proud of him.  Phone calls will be rare and each one will be a gift.  He should have Internet and an APO address so I can write him and hope for an occasional letter.

So I'm lining up my life for the next year to stay busy.  Roger and I both are going to be doing Hospice volunteering working with the patients.  I have some studying and tests to complete and a book that I have to fill out by answering questions about me.  I try to do a few pages each day.

And we're planning a garden/flower bed after we get the landlord's permission.  That will keep us busy and hopefully deliver the homegrown tomatoes I have been craving for the last 2 years.

In that vein, any gardners that read my blog?  We need advice on how to control squirrels and where online would be a good place to order Siberian lillies.  We're doing an above the ground garden and planting flowers by our porch and around the side of the house.  And pics will follow throughout the summer...promise!

I plan to do some sewing for me, making the bedspread for our room and some pillows for the other room.  Hoping to visit Roger's kids over the summer in Chicago and Buffalo.

And I'm sure I wil come up with other projects as the body allows.

I've missed you all and will spend part of tomorrow morning reading blogs and catching up with your lives, but now i need to go to work as I wasn't able to work much last week with the virus.

Have a beautiful rest of the day and Don't~Stop~Believin'!


Anonymous said...

Glad you are doing better. My heart goes out to you, I know what it is to let a son go off to the Army, one of mine was in Desert Storm. God bless your son for serving our country.

Sounds like you have a lot planned to do that will keep you busy. I wish the best in doing it all. My thoughts and prayers are with you always. Hugs!

Laura ~Peach~ said...

we use the bb guns to deter the rodents... they dont kill them and they are smart enough to know that it hurts and they stop... but it takes time...

Kathleen said...

As the mom of a soldier who has deployed twice to Iraq, I will keep you in my prayers. Thank you to your son, and to your family as you walk this road.

WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

Glad you are feeling better, sorry the creeping crud has not left the house yet...

We use one of those plastic owls to keep the squirrels and rabbits away from my garden...and some plastic snakes....and I have lots and lots of squirrels and rabbits so I think this works pretty good, and its passive - I don't have to do anything! It doesn't work for deer tho!

Wishing the best for your son in his deployment. Thank heavens for the internet and cell phones!

Alice said...

I think a trip to GA is still in order. Austin will provide you with plenty of love and kisses for Michael while he's gone. :)

We did get the seat you sent. It is PERFECT for us!! It came at just the right time. I'm sorry I haven't had a chance to call. Austin is crawling and it's keepin' mama hoppin'. Thinking of you and praying for you. We love you, Ness, and we're going to be here for you through this incredibly tough time.

PS- Ervin gardens. We'll call soon and he can answer all your questions!

Debra W said...

So glad that you are feeling better, dear friend. The last thing that you and Roger need is a nasty virus! I hope Roger is feeling better, too.

I cannot believe that Michael is going to be deployed so soon! If he would welcome notes from home, drop me his address and I will send him some when he gets over there. I completely understand your need to cut that cord before he goes away. As mothers, we equip them the very best we can and then we must trust that we gave them everything that we could. Just remember that Michael's angels will ALWAYS be with him. In Judaism, we believe that each baby is born with 10,000 angels to watch over them. Michael will be well-protected. Please thank him again, for his dedicated service to our country. Tell him that his auntie in CA is praying for him and is grateful for him. What an amazing boy you have raised into a man, Nessie.

As for you, keep doing your projects. I admire you and Roger for wanting to do the Hospice care. I have a very dear friend who just did some Hospice care for several months. She got a huge amount out of it, but it did take a toll on her health. She is a fibro-sufferer, like us. You are such a giving soul and it would be a wonderful gift for someone to have you as their care-giver. After my work at the hospital, I can tell you that you will also get a huge amount back from your patients. Just be sure to continue taking care of yourself as you care for others. The biggest thing that I learned in Spiritual care was how important it was to debrief each day. You will do fine as long as you remember to do that.

Yay for fresh tomatoes! I grew some last summer and they were such a treat! We didn't have too much trouble with the squirrels. I do keep a bird feeder in my yard, so maybe they had enough to eat with the seed and all? They seemed to prefer the seed, so it kept them away from the tomatoes. We did get some of those tomato worms, but I just picked them off and they went away. I like to keep things as natural as possible.

Take good care, dear heart!

Hugs and love,

Debra W said...

Oh yes, my prayers are with Kathy and her nephews. It's so hard and so ridiculous that people cannot just allow children to have as much love as possible in their lives.

More hugs,