20 October 2010

All Over The Place

Including the blackness spreading over my left hand.

It was a Ness vs public sidewalk in front of the library.

Enough to send 2 onlookers into near apoplexy wanting to call an ambulance.

I only wish it had been filmed so I could have seen it.

In slow motion my mind was going, "Oh no, this can't be happening.  I'm going to break something and I have the only operable car with me."

From what I remember, it was an up in the air forward free fall landing on my bent up wrists and sliding for what seemed like forever before completing the belly flop.

But the phone, library book previously being held, purse and glasses survived the trip.

I went into the library after assuring people I did not need an ambulance and thanked them for their concern.

I sat down and within the hour I knew I was in deep doo-doo.

Drove home one armed(not good but necessary and I took back streets)
and Nurse Kelli assessed the growing hematoma and swelling at the base of my left wrist and said she didn't think it was broken and that was good enough to give me a Skip Out of ER Card as far as I was concerned.

Roger doctored all my scrapes on knees, palms and arms and set me up with an ice bag for my left wrist/hand while Kelli got antiinflammatories and pain meds and Mommy's Major Helper(aka Clonazepam or is it Clonidine?)  After another hour I had a quarter sized bruise in the palm of my hand.  Never saw a bruise in the palm of my hand and it was fascinating.

Good thing I've always loved rainbows because my hand is on its way to an Oscar for best rainbowed hand in a 56 year old female.

And still I worked.

One right hand and 4 tips of fingers on the left hand those medical dictations were dealt with.

Protestant work ethic lives on!

Today is Day 2 which is the prophetic day when all pain from an injury/fall wakes up to be counted and this is an exceptional Day 2 in every way.  The recliner and Colin will be caring for me until time to type the transcriptions at 4 p.m.

On another note which I don't have time to fully get into I am probably going to 86 Facebook or pare it down a great deal.  I use it to keep up with my dear friends(you know who you are) and my soldier.  But when something ceases to be fun and causes you more grief than joy, then it's time to reevaluate.  Next month is my yearly Reality Month to see what cancer holds in its evil hands and I usually do a lot of soul searching and mental housekeeping/evaluation.  Life is too, too short to be miserable or let others make you miserable.  I try to take care of friends and family but when it's one sided then it's time to reevaluate.  If one allows one's self to be a doormat or have your buttons pushed, it is no one's fault but your own if you don't do something about it. 

Continue to BELIEVE.

Even if you have to fake it to make it which is how I'm currently rolling.

I can't fix what needs fixing and it destroys me.

But I have to BELIEVE and so do you that someday ...


WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

Ness: I think the sidewalk won!!! OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH!!!

I do a quarterly "reality check" and remind myself that life is not as bad I think on a day to day basis. Having an accounting back ground I make sure I make the same measurements each quarter to keep me grounded.

I also pamper myself with a little private celebration on the anniversery of my cancer surgery and the anniversery of the completion of my radiation therapy.

Hoping you pamper yourself a little too!!!

PS Facebook is good as a distraction, but when it becomes a focus or something that brings you DOWN that is not such a good thing. My sister quit using it this summer for the same reason.

Anonymous said...

Oh, my sweet Ness as you were describing your fall I could almost feel the scarping and burning ans you met that sidewalk. I am so sorry that you fell and injured yourself. Hope you heal speedily...will have you in my prayers.

Sounds like you have a plate running over right now so your cut back plan sounds like a good idea to me. I went through some of that doormat stuff and we just have to put on the brakes sometimes for our own sanity and health. You take care of YOU while you are caring for others sweet lady.


Laura ~Peach~ said...

hugs ... totally appreciate the call :) love hearing you. OWIE OWIE OWIE...
Love and hugs and feel better FAST!

WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

PS Ness - women are always taking the "care taker" role but sometimes you need to "care take" yourself first.

My sister has a husband with a severe stroke, and tends to forget to take care of herself because it takes a ton of energy to help her husband. I have to remind her, if you get down sick because you didn't care enough for yourself then all the purpose that you thought that taking care of someone else was accomplishing is lost. Because no-one is taking care of anyone when you all go down like London Bridge.

We care about you! Please care about you too!!! Good luck on cancer recheck month! Praying for you!

Debbie said...

Prayers that next month goes well, Ms. Ness!

Now, can we say OUCH! I'm so glad you didn't break anything..whew. I'm glad you have family to take care of you and you let them okay?

Get better soon. As long as I can see you here, I'll be okay with you not on FB. :) You do what you need to do to be happy!!

jojo said...

I just had to shudder reading this. Oh Ness, when will you ever learn that concrete is always going to win??! Take care sweetpea, get the rest you need to heal up quickly the first time. Love you to bits...

Debbie Jean said...

Oh Ness, so sorry about that fall. Take care of yourself. I have learned the same way many times that yes the concrete always wins.

You are in my daily prayers friend, and we need you and love ya!! Now rest and heal and let them take care of YOU!!!

Love ya loads!

God Bless~
Debbie Jean

oscardelahoya said...

ouch Ness sorry about the hand but next time when something like that happens make sure you go to the hospital immediately,ness pls follow my blog