In a nutshell, Daughter 2(further known as D2) has been in and out of 2 psychiatric hospitals for 4 overdoses on prescription meds and a diagnosis of PTSD due to a rape her junior year we never knew about. She has always run with a group of friends and after her engagement I guess she realized what being a wife would mean and she freaked out and thus started this journey in September. She has now been out for a week seeing a counselor and psychiatrist. Yesterday I discovered that my pain meds, sleep meds and Ativan had been pretty much depleted and I can't get them refilled until 11/25. So I'm making due, praying a lot and trying to make the heart hurt go away that neither daughter will owe up to the fact that they have had a key made to my safe because we change the combination every day and I never open it if they are in the room. The ultimate yesterday was when one of them said, "Fine, Mom, I did it. You seem to not be able to give this up unless someone confesses." I saw red. I told them I wanted the truth and that I had a right to be upset about my meds being absconded and to get out of my airspace. I cried for hours and know that as a Christian I am to forgive as I am forgiven but this just hurts so bad that they would do this to their mom who they know needs the meds and who is providing them with a home. Kelli was laid off but has another prospect and as soon as that happens they are both gone. I am done with having daughters. That may sound harsh but I don't have the energy to explain what all I have been through with them and Roger and I are ready to reclaim our home.
My dear Roger...he can't stay out of the hospital. Two weeks ago he had a 34 pulse, trying to pass out and seeing spots before his eyes. They rushed him to the hospital and after they took him off Coumadin to thicken his blood up for surgery and lots of Vitamin K, they installed a dual chamber pacemaker. Pulse was at 70 and all seemed well....until this last Saturday when he had the passing out feeling and seeing black spots again. His blood pressure was 94/54 so back to the hospital by ambulance and the pacemaker company sent someone out to "interrogate" the pacemaker. It checked out fine so the pacemaker wasn't the problem. They started giving him IV fluids because his labs showed him to be dehydrated and in renal failure with a high creatinine. The next day his creatinine was better and it dawned on the Cardiologist that he has lost 50 lbs (on his own) since she put him on 80 mg of Lasix (diuretic) and it was too much for his body size and needed to be stepped down. He is now on 60 mg per day and so far, so good. We both caught the virus of the week but outside of that he was doing well. However, I had a go-round with the discharge nurse because in going over discharge instructions, they STILL had the Lasix at 80 mg and had his Coumadin at 7.5 mg instead of 5 on MWF and 2.5 the rest of the week. That could have killed him because he would have bled out. I thank God every day I got my LPN license. I may not be able to do it as a career but I use it plenty on my family.
Thanksgiving is at my house this year and I will have to wait to see who shows up. Kathy, Bobby, Carter and Cade for sure, Michael for sure, Roger and I for sure and the rest gets dicey...Kelli and her new boyfriend (also Army) are supposed to be here but if D2's fiance' comes then Kelli refuses to be here. Looooong story but I had asked him not to call when D2 was in the hospital and he did anyway so militarian Kelli says he doesn't deserve to be here because he disobeyed my orders. He is also in the Army. So who knows? But we are having our first-ever FRESH turkey...A Butterball. Every year it's a stressor to defrost the frozen one because Roger and I have different ideas of defrosting methods...my OCD goes to DEF COM when it comes to food possibly spoiling. So this year I pick it up Wed. night and cook it the next day. Michael will be in a few days early to visit and help out. We are finally coming into the 21st century and getting a new TV (42 inches!) which will sit on top of our entertainment stand. Roger and I can't go out much (poverty sucks) so we watch TV and rent Netflix movies so we feel it's a good investment. God Bless WalMart for opening up layaway for electronics this Christmas. Michael can lift it into the truck and into the house and set it up as he just bought a 47 inch for his new apartment in Richmond and hooked it up. Electronics and I do not play well together.
OK, well I think that is a catchup in a nutshell.
Happy that my Cards won the World Series and taking a wait and see attitude with our new manager Mike Matheny. I wanted Oquendo but since I don't have time to run the Cardinals I'll deal with it.
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